The bulk of this blog was written some years ago by my Sister. It’s an account of an experience she endured as a child. I can clearly recall the night, even the very moment when it threw our little home into utter confusion. I should like to state that until our thirties, neither my sister, or myself... had ever experienced any Christian background.
So there we were, my Parents, Sister, Brother and I... all quietly watching a Second World War film. You know the type, one of those “Red leader to blue leader, bandits at three O’clock, tally-ho chaps”. Well during the movie there was a close-up of one of the pilots placing on his flying mask... and forgive the pun, but suddenly ‘all hell broke loose’.
I’ve seen people ‘freak-out’ since that day but in almost all cases, the afflicted soul still demonstrated some remnant of purpose during their madness, in either that they attempted to flee from, prevent or attack whatsoever it was that was distressing them. This logic was completely absent from my Sister, who although physically with us, was lost in some monstrous reality that was completely incomprehensible.
There was no warning, no build-up, just an immediate and shocking hysteria! The screaming was instantaneous and totally without restraint, I jumping-up turned to see my Sister, who was by now on her feet... wearing a mask of such dread and despair that I knew it was far beyond any thing that I could comprehend... for this was in the realms of gibbering madness! For a moment our eyes met... as if she were trying to convey to me her horror, yet although she was my Sister, I just didn’t want to know. And so turning away she continuing screaming and lashing out at invisible horrors. It took my father, who at that time was at least a stocky sixteen stone, to restrain her, which he could only accomplish by sitting on her, a mere child... pinning her to the floor with his weight! Such was the despair and terror of her voice that for a short while, even my then small brother became hysterical... gleaning something of her horror!
It appears that the ‘placing on of the mask’ was the trigger that reminded her of the event she had experienced earlier, whilst under anaesthetic at the dentist.
I can recall nothing more of that event than what I have conveyed, only that so discomforting was it to all present, that looking back we appeared to have disowned it, as we never spoke of it again until approximately thirty years later. My most prominent memory shall always be the moment our eyes met, of which I still can not fully comprehend, nor do I want to.
Well, here follows Marie’s testimony of that horrific event, as she wrote it in her own blog...
VISIONS OF HELL...I WAS THERE!! PLEASE READ..
This blog was first written in October 2006.
Please have an open mind... I am telling you the truth, I would be Judged by God if I lied....
I was given a very intense near death or some people would say ‘dream experience/vision’... whatever it was... It was 100% real to me, and perhaps more than anything else.... It was something I will never ever forget...
It happened when I was in my early teens in the 1970s after a bodged up dentist session in which I ended up, believe it or not in ‘Hell’
Hell was not a place of party’s and orgy’s and good fun....... what I found was so horrific....it would haunt me for decades....imagine your worst nightmare x 10,000 but you couldn’t wake up from it ’’ These words will never explain what it was like but I truly believe Christ was showing me something that would help me later and I hope others alike....and maybe you.
He doesn’t want anyone to go to Hell, but Satan does and he knows he is going and he wants to make sure as many of us go down with him as possible....
After being put under.........
It started of with me dropping through a colourful spiralling tunnel which stopped at one point with me looking up from a grave with a circle of demon like people pointing down at me, mocking me... laughing at me...... Have you ever had a really close near miss accident?.... remember that feeling of shock and the prickly feeling on your skin, I remember feeling that... I was still looking up when I started to drop again... It felt like a very fast lift going down, I was back in the tunnel... dropping ..twisting.. all the time completely terrified.
After going through the tunnel, I appeared in a morbid.. dark.. dead place of horrifying windy screams that seemed to blow right through me. I couldn’t see anything but a barren rusty coloured wasteland... I really felt empty and the feeling of impending doom was so overwhelming, my whole mind, body and soul were in torment! It seemed like I was there for years... stuck in a scream like world... Time had stopped... I was in a frozen state of complete terror you could not imagine... It was like all the good, the warmth, the fun/love/comfort/joy/humour/life...had been left behind at the top of that tunnel....the feeling was so Dark.... I had never felt so utterly alone and helpless....
It was all too overbearing....The Screams were getting louder and louder... I didn’t just hear them they were going through me.... they were in me around me....everywhere....the fear the pure horror the terror..I couldn’t take anymore my whole being exploded into a SCREAM.....
I then remember looking up screeeeaming... and out of my mouth came the word "MERCY!!".... I had never used that word in my life, I didn’t even know the meaning...but as soon as I said it, in a instance God reached out from above me and pulled me out....
I then came round to a panicking dentist staff still screaming ...... I then remember a mask being put over my face and awaking later.... I have no idea of what physically happened to me that day.... I was shown something that I would never forget.....It wasn’t just a dream or a nightmare....It was a vision of HELL......and I’d been shown It for a reason...maybe for you to read, maybe for me to become a follower of Christ, maybe both?.... If you reject God then you reject “LOVE” because God is Love.. where I was there was no “love” or feeling happy or at peace it was indeed “Hell!”...the feeling of Dread of being totally alone...In a deep dark place..... HELL is a place totally cut off from God, cut off from his love... his light. All the Good that we feel now is from God, and turn your back on him....and this life is the nearest you will get to Heaven.... to a Christian its the nearest we get to Hell....
That experience haunted me all my life, I was so scared of that HELL waiting for me, but I still rejected God and was a total rebel, I suffered from hideous nightmares every night and an unsettled spirit, I drank heavily because of a traumatic past, I didn’t ever think about the future as I couldn’t see past the same day.....
Thats until now... Christ change everything for me. I never understood that I didn’t have to go to that place when I died, that someone else has gone in there for me. JESUS CHRIST...now I understand that the sacrifice he made on the cross... was to save us from that Hell, and all I had to do was believe in him.
From the day Jesus became a man He knew his fate.. his whole purpose of birth was to die for us..... to be a sacrifice for our sins and to spare us from that awful Hell... as the sacrificial lamb. I know If I or you were the only people on earth He would have still died for us.... God I thank you..
I even tried to get in to so many other “religions” so to avoid that place. But they were empty, I found no peace.... I am at last happy with my life suffering no more nightmares, as I am on the same team as the most powerful entity in the whole world or realm... our Lord Christ.
I have faith and also FACT as I know where I went.... and I now know I don’t wanna go back....do YOU.....?
In seeking to shrug off such a testimony, as a gas induced vision... or as the excitable imagination of a child, a few things aught to be considered first.
Nitrous Oxide, the gas used back then, was banned for it’s many negative side effects, one being that not only could it kill, but brought others to the very brink of death. With this in mind, it is noteworthy to mention that many people who have been involved in ‘near death experiences’, such as those involved in car accidents, wars, violence, illnesses or whatever, have testified to similar ‘near death experiences’ as did my Sister, with others actually being brought back from the dead testifying to the same. I would therefore suggest, that my Sister did experience her own ‘near death experience’ entering Hades below, because of the use of this now banned gas... meaning her experience was very real indeed.
An Old Friend’s Near Death Experience.
Additionally, I can also testify regarding a close friend of mine... from my pre-christian days. Who having suffered his own ‘Near Death Experience’ because of pneumonia, sort out my opinion regarding what he experienced during it. However in his case, I can not reveal his name because not being a Christian, he might well be offended if I were to associate him with Christ Jesus in anyway.
1 Corinthians 1:18
For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God.
Anyway, some years ago I had played my friend an audio clip from an CD called ‘The Sounds of Hell’, a recording I might add, for scriptural reasons is no doubt a hoax, something I informed my friend before I played it to him. However, if Hell could be recorded... I wouldn’t be at all surprised if it did in fact sound similar to that clip.
Some months later, my friend unexpectedly knocked at my door, and although I could see he was extremely anxious about something... once he saw that I had a visitor, he soon left. However, it didn’t take me long to realise that what he wanted to discuss, was something regarding my faith. Because I knew of no other subject that he would be too ashamed to speak of publicly, when speaking of it was the only means he might have to relieve him of his present distress.
Anyway, this very same situation replayed itself about a week later, him turning-up when my Christian friend was visiting. However, gleaning a little more of the fear he was suffering, I couldn’t allow him to leave again without first ‘testing the waters’. Therefore I said to him... “on your next visit, we can watch a video I have, regarding someone’s Hell experience’. And to my utter astonishment [you would understand if you knew him] he said he would watch it the following friday.
Friday arrived, and so did my friend in the evening, I had only just opened my mouth to mention the video and still in the process of sitting-down he cut me off mid sentence saying...
“Karl... I have only recently come out of intensive care in hospital suffering from pneumonia. I was gasping for breath so much that I was arching my back in the bed. I remembered hearing one nurse say ‘he isn’t going to make it’ when I suddenly started falling down a long dark shaft.”
Then my friend wouldn’t relate anything more than what he said next, which was...
I was falling into a long, dark deep pit and there were others, or creatures reaching out to grab me from the sides. I could see a light above, and I just knew I had to get back to it... And the noise, it was exactly the same as you played me on that CD!
He wouldn’t elaborate anymore than that, and I didn’t try to press him... I could see his fear and didn’t need to know anything more to answer the question that his eyes were asking, which was “Am I safe now?”.
What was I to do, comfort him with lies... or be a real friend and tell him the truth? The love that is in the World is cheap, and because it is so cheap people give it away liberally... even pastors telling sinners that God now accepts the sin that nailed His Son to the Cross. But the love that comes from God is costly... and there are few that will share it.
11 - Rescue those being led away to death;
hold back those staggering toward slaughter.
12 - If you say, “But we knew nothing about this,” does not he who weighs the heart perceive it?
Does not he who guards your life know it?
Will he not repay each person according to what he has done?
But if the watchman sees the sword coming and does not blow the trumpet to warn the people and the sword comes and takes the life of one of them, that man will be taken away because of his sin, but I will hold the watchman accountable for his blood.
I took a breath and not knowing what reaction would follow said...
You have been blessed by being forewarned where you will go if you do not amend your ways. Very few get such an opportunity... but you have seen the place so turn and change your ways.
And you can imagine my surprise when he responded with...
But I made it back to the light, I returned!
To which I answered...
Yes, but sooner or later you are going to die... and unless you amend your ways and turn to Jesus you will return to that place.
My prayer for my friend is, that he will overcome the pride that is in the World, that Satanic spirit of pride that once held me so bound by fear, that I dare not even speak the name of Jesus least some might associate me with Him. Such fear is a sure sign that a person is bound by the wicked one, who uses such weapons to keep multitudes from discovering the truth, and the freedom that is found only in Christ Jesus.
Before I finish, I would like to make a few comments based on my scriptural observations. I shall keep these short as this blog is already quite long.
The first thing that I would like to comment on is my Sisters quote...
If you reject God then you reject “LOVE” because God is Love.. where I was there was no “love” or feeling happy or at peace it was indeed “Hell!”
It was like all the good, the warmth, the fun/love/comfort/joy/humour/life...had been left behind at the top of that tunnel....the feeling was so Dark.... I had never felt so utterly alone and helpless.... ”
I John 4:8 & 18
8 - Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is Love.
18 - There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.
People have no idea at all... that the love they currently experience between one another, is only available because of God’s presence in the World. However, upon death those who have rejected God will have rejected love because... ‘God is Love’. Therefore they being ever separated from God, will be ever separated from His love. We get a glimpse of this at the Cross... when Jesus experienced in our stead, the horror of being separated from His Father’s love...
1 - My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me,
so far from my cries of anguish?
2 - My God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer,
by night, but I find no rest.
Now turning to the doctrine of Hell itself, although Jesus does allude to the fact that Hell already exists...
Then shall he say also to those on His left, Depart from me, you cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared [past tense] for the devil and his angels:
...Scripture makes it quite clear that when the unsaved die today, apart from some unique circumstances... they go to Hades to await the ‘Great White Throne Judgment’, where they shall receive their sentence. And that being the case, knowing that the ‘Great White Throne Judgment’ is yet future, we know that the souls of the lost are temporarily held in Hades. For even on Earth the guilty are not sentenced until they are first judged, and until that day they are held in a holding cell.
On that Scriptural basis, I think it much more ‘likely’ that both my Sister and my friend saw and experienced a part of Hades and not Hell. Though it is entirely possible that God in His great mercy shew them their part in Hell (The Second Death) that they might turn to Him who ventured there in our place, even Jesus Christ our Lord.
11 - Then I saw a great white throne and him who was seated on it. Earth and sky fled from his presence, and there was no place for them.
12 - And I saw the dead, great and small, standing before the throne, and books were opened [Records of every act and thought]. Another book was opened, which is the book of life [Record of those who were washed from sin by faith in Jesus]. The dead were judged according to what they had done as recorded in the books.
13 - The sea gave up the dead that were in it, and death and Hades gave up the dead that were in them, and each person was judged according to what he had done. 14 - Then death and Hades were thrown into the lake of fire [Hell]. The lake of fire is the second death.’
15 - If anyone’s name was not found written in the book of life, he was thrown into the lake of fire
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A testimony by Dr Donald Whitaker, who having rejected God all of his life had one Christian who continuously would not give-up on him... but ever witnessed Christ. And after another celebrity party was left upon a deathbed waiting to die. And who do you think he thought of... his great rock n roll friend, celebrities or senators? Of cause not... but only his Christian friend whom he called for. And whilst he waited... continually fell into Hades but fought his way back... all night long till his friend came. Who in terror and desperation asked for him to tell him how he might be saved. And rather than die he lived, to everyones amazement, who since that day now witnesses Christ to all who will listen.
I praise God that He sent His Son Jesus, whom I serve... and that He has saved not only many of my family and friends, but me also from that eternal Hell. And it is my desire that He will not only save my old friend, but you also... some of whom I have failed to conveying His salvation message. May He give me such an opportunity again... and may we all find grace and salvation through His Son on that great day.